Stillstand (Standstill) is a short film that emerged out of a performance developed in the aftermath of my grandmother’s death. Moving between choreography, material interaction, and intimate spatial gestures, the work explores grief not as something to overcome, but as a condition to inhabit — a shifting landscape of absence, memory, and sensation.
At the centre of the work is the question of how to remain with grief without disappearing inside it. Through haptic engagement with materials, surfaces, weight, and touch, the piece investigates how the body searches for orientation when language becomes insufficient. Material becomes a companion in the grieving process: something to hold onto, resist against, breathe with, and return to. The film traces a movement from collapse toward re-emergence — not resolution, but the gradual possibility of breathing again, taking up space again, and sensing oneself in relation to the world after loss.
